This Type of Blog sucks!
I am back!! From the Online Digital Diary! THat one has always been down these days!! I dont' know why!! haha then I am writing in here again~

I have been bothered by something recently. I dont' really want to think about it! But i just can't. One moment when ithought that person is out of my mind, he just comes back in my cellphone or MSN. I Dont' want to talk to him and I basically want to just forget him. This is not a right moment for me to have love. Since that's not one of my top priorities. 1. Piano, 2. Career, 3. Lose Weight.
I said I would get myself prepared for the right person to come. I rather want to wait wait for now. Everything just happens so quickly giving me no time to think and my mind is then occupied by this stupid thing all the time!
from what i have observed, i think i will only be a "lo GU PO" if i want to be someone great. my mind can't be separated for 2 purposes. Sigh...

Suck
This blog always go down! I have decided to write on the digital diary site from now on

http://www.digitalexpressions.nu/viewdiary.php?DID=15353

^_^

I got it! Finally!
Now Playing: Scherzo No.2 Op.31 in B minor
Wow~ I am full of enthusiasm again! i finally got Yundi's latest album!

However, i really don't understand why i want to cry when i listen to it. I have sort of a sympathy for no.2 scherzo! I guess I am just biased bc of the show i watched b4.

How can he play so fast? um.... I have to work really hard in order to leave here!! if my plan works, i should be able to leave by Dec 2005. But mom wants to go to my graduation ceremony. She sugguested that why wouldn't i stay here and work for a year. then I will go back to China and Hong Kong in December 2006. Since i have a yer of experience, it will make me easier to find a job in HK or in China!

Of ocurse, I wouldn't prefer to live in Hong Kong. But I want to earn enough money so that I can go to Europe for travel only. I guess, Shopping is off my list of interest or hobby now! hahaha Shopping no longer makes me happy after the dispute with my aunt. I guess, making non-sense noise at home and see the progress everyday is much more rewarding!!

Yundi New CD
I think I just leave room incase i will drop some course... beside... I am only taking 2 econ and 1 mgt. Idon't expect too heavy course load from the other courses

Haha~ Yundi new CD should be out already!!!

http://www.umg.com.hk/classic/cd_content.php?page=1&newrelease_no=264

I hope to see his Scherzo No.2 in B minor MV so much!! I remember how he played in hsi concert in Quebec last month! I hope I can go back to my musical "state" dispite of all the unhappiness and unsupportive statemtns!! YEAH!

Fall and Winter schedule

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Display of Student Timetable NAME: Ms Lam, Melanie Ka Yan Session: 2004 Fall Reg. Status: REG POSt Cd: SC BBA2 (Bachelor of Business Administration) Subject POSTs: SCMIN1590 (Minor Program in Music History) SCMIN1666H (Minor Program in Human Geography) SCSPE24312 (Specialist Program in Management) ECMC61H3 F International Econ: Fina ECMC62H3 F Internationl Eco: Trade LEC 01 MO 3:00- 5:00 MW 120 LEC 01 WE 9:00-11:00 MW 120 LGGA17H3 F Aca Writing I:Non-Native LGGA19H3 F Practicum:Non-Native Spe LEC 01 FR 10:00-12:00 HW 214 LEC 02 WE/FR 1:00- 2:00 HW 308 MGTD70H3 F Personal Financial Manag VPMA93H3 F Listening to Music LEC 01 TH 1:00- 3:00 MW 110 LEC 30 MO 5:00- 7:00 SW 309 Session: 2005 Winter Reg. Status: REG POSt Cd: SC BBA2 (Bachelor of Business Administration) Subject POSTs: SCMIN1590 (Minor Program in Music History) SCMIN1666H (Minor Program in Human Geography) SCSPE24312 (Specialist Program in Management) ECMB12H3 S Quantitative Methods in ECMB13H3 S Applied Data Analysis LEC 31 TH 7:00-10:00 MW 170 LEC 01 WE 11:00- 1:00 MW 110 MGTB29H3 S Managing Groups & Organi MGTC71H3 S Intro to Derivatives Mar LEC 02 MO 3:00- 5:00 MW 110 LEC 01 MO 11:00- 1:00 MW 110 MGTD71H3 S Advanced Financial Manag VPMA80H3 S Introduction to Music LEC 01 WE 9:00-11:00 MW 120 LEC 01 MO/WE 2:00- 3:00 BV 340 Back to the Top

You may see my ROSI schedule~ hahahah I also purchased a locker at the R Wing. 3108.. I dont mind to share with those going to UTSC. just send me an email~ Current;y it's still EMPTY~ ahahha hope to fill it with somethings stuff at least!!

montreal again
I just came back form Montreal tonight.
Again? right? My mom came, so i should go to montreal with her to visit her brother (my uncle). But this time I went with my 4th aunt and her 3 "pearls"

I met my cousin in montreal agian and talk talk talk during the journeys ( i didn't need to drive when we were in Quebec of course)

She is such a geninus.... she understands everything i speak of... with no repeat! (realize how fast i speak) she understands every muscial aspect i was talking about... the technical difficulties in piano and orchestra.... And even my beginer level science. (she is a science student) WHen i tlked about L'arc~en~Ciel, talked about how amazing the bass and muscial arrangement were... she could hear it. When i said how my Macroeconomic view has changed, she sees the difference!!! And of course CARs...

She is also keen on cosmetics, fragnace or trendy stuff.... But not as "over heat" as my other close cousin who is way too TRENDY

Oh Gosh!!! what an amazing person!! how come I didn't get to know her and talk to her more earlier in my life? Such a smart, gentle, polite and easy person......creative, romantic and self-motivated... as well as beautiful in many of my friends' comments. Good in both in and out!! GOD! so jealous (beside the fact that she can speak 4 languages)!

She told me something i was and should really disappointed about.... What should i do? But actually i do feel somethign has changed after last month. But what i was told was true. I will not tolerate it!

Ride like the wind
Who's that young Chinese pianist starring with cycling king Lance Armstrong in a new Nike ad running during NBC's Athens Olympics coverage? It's Yundi Li, who dazzled audiences at Tanglewood's Ozawa Hall earlier this month. He's shown racing to a Beijing concert after oversleeping. In transit, he morphs into Armstrong and easily makes it onstage in time. The tagline: ``You're faster than you think.''


HAHAHHA!!!!!

First time ever during the 3 months
Now Playing: mmmmmmmmmm
Tonight... a friend mentioned about living alone. I really dream that i can be living alone too!! Only with my books, CDs, Piano and computer! I guess i have got all i need! I don't really need food! I don't want to eat anymore!

I really think stop eating helps alot!! the times when Uncle were not here to cook, i usually just got some fruit or preserved food. THat helps explaining why i can lose 5 ibs in just a month again!! this has been flunctuatin a lot since May! GOD~~ can it just go DOWN??

I would really love to see one day if I have the 'symdome' where u just hate to eat!! I guess that's the BEST revenge to my mom and whatsoever who thinks I am not fit enough! Or evne one day i will die of... "lack of nutrients" (don't know the right name for it). HO NONE FAN! SHUT UP BITCH!

I am just so pissed off now bc of mnay reasons! I have recalled a lot of things I don't want to rmemeber tonight! I have recalled I have liked 'harry potter' for a very short period of time. Also about the conflicts bt my brother, my aunts... or bascially my father side. they never think what I do is right... leading me to oppose even worse. Although i have shut down my MSN. (friends told me to) but I will not sleep until i finsih this entry!!! the excitment i had had for 3 months were ALL gone tonight! I stillw ant to be a pianist! but........... I am just so depressed Now! wlll be i one of the great one? i know I won't get all A's as Febby, Fiona do.... I don't like study at all. It's just that I am not given a chocice! what can I do now if i don't study! the issue or the fact that I ALWAYS use to "question" my cousin!

In fact, i dont' like study at all.... my finance... i still have 70% not done!! while I haven't touched any of the other subjects!!! I just got the grade for my marketing project.. 73%! what a stupid mark! if i knew it would be this low... for sure i wouldn't spend so many over nights on it! stupid!

well..... my stupid T630... just can't send MMS!!! GOD........... so many things to handle!! how come life is never ended? there is NEW thing everyday!

can I be the girl in '50 1st dates'? i really like that! how come i Have such a good memory to remember so many tiny little stuff into my brain?? while.... am I better off to memorizing piano score?? dont' think so!!! i odn't even remember the song i have played in gr 7 only!! Not even a yr a go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11 what a loser!

Excitment
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: scherzo op 31 no.2
I am so pissed off by my lack of ability to make my instrument sounds well!! I really want to go to my piano teacher's place today when i was practising! i didn't know if the way I was playing correct or not! but the stupid crappy piano really made me very sad!! I know a professional can still play very well given that th epiano is not in its perfect condition! but I won't have a chance to get a new one unless I pass gr 8 exam! OH!!! that must be next year febury when mom comes! However, I also don't know which one to buy! I don't want to get Yamaha for sure (maybe end up i can only get a YAMAHA~ sigh) But Euro is just so high now! as well as Canadian dolloars!! How long I must wait until these factors have been overcome?? I really can't wait!! the more I play on my own piano, the more i got pissed off... I have to admit that my skill is not good enough yet! But the bad quality of the piano is making me WORSE!!! AH..... well... from now on until the end of exam, i will spedn 3 hrs at least a day to practise, te first thing to do when i get up is to PRACTISe! I have made a decision, i will quit CO-OP before Sept! I want to read somebooks about music first. then I will tell the co-op office! cuz I dont' want to "2 heads, can't be landed" But anyway, I will only focus on Finance stream of study! since i don't really like accounting! I dont' want to take another course to ruin my GPA again! §Ú¯u¦ô¤£¨ì§õ¶³­}¦^¼vÅT§Ú¨º»ò¦h ¤W­Ó¬P´Á¤­¦bquebecªººt«µ·|Áö¤£¬Operfect, (¦]¤á¥~, ¦Ó¥B¤U«B) ¦ý¥L¯uªº«Ü¦³·P¬V¤O, §Ú¥i»¡¬Æ»ò? ¦]¥L¯uªº«Üè°¥J ~ ¯uªº«Ü¦ü¤ì§ø §Ú¤§«e¤]ı±o¥L¼Ë°I§a~ ¦ý²{¦b¯uªºµL¸Ü¥i»¡¤F ¬°¤°»ò¤W¤Ñ¨º»ò¤£¤½¥­?? ¥L¨º»òè°¥J, ­µ¼Ö¦³¨º»ò¦³¤Ñ¥÷ ¤£¹L§Úı±o§Ú¥Î¤F¨º»ò¦h®É¶¡ì¬¨®¥h¤]¤Q¤À¦³»ù­È!!!

Excitment
Mood:  energetic
Topic: Travel
THERE are still 2 more weeks until i leave for Quebec~ I am really excited now~ I can finally listen to Yundi's playing the piano. THAT's great!
However, it's also sad or ironic that many people have told me their feeling toward Yundi~~ he's "inch", ugly and not friendly!
Although in some way, i agree with these comments too... however, sigh....
Don't know! anyway, i still like him! Yeah~